Waiting

So...Tuesday when I was at work, my cell phone rang. I answer and find it's someone from the Medical Examiner's office calling to ask me some questions.  He asked me if I knew what time she was found. I told him approximately 8 a.m. on December 11. He asked if she was living at home. I told him that we'd just gotten her an apartment and she was living there, but that's not where she was found.  He asked if I knew where she was found. I told him that what I was told was that she was at the house of some people, in a spare bedroom laying on a pallet made up of blankets and that there were 1 or 2 blankets in there with her. I told them that she was always hot, so I doubt she had the blankets on her. He asked me if the police have talked to the people whose house she was at. I said yes, but that they packed a U-Haul and fled to CA 2 days after being questioned. He said, but they do know who it is. I said, yes. He said, good.

Disclaimer:  This bothers me to not do this with the correct punctuation and form, but that's just me, and this is my blog so I can do it incorrectly if I wanna - Ha!

So anyway, he asked me when I last heard from or saw Amanda and knew she was alive. I initially told him 10 p.m., that she had messaged me from her Facebook. He asked if that was from her phone. I told him yes.  He told me to hang tight, they were close to being done.  I asked him if he could at least tell me if they had found windshield washer fluid or antifreeze in her system. He said he could not share with me yet what they did find, but that those two things were not found. What does that mean? That they DID find something but just not that? Or was he just trying to be evasive in answering as he wasn't allowed to answer yet? Too many things that it could mean.

Later, I looked all through my Facebook to find the message to confirm the time, and she had actually messaged me at 7:29 p.m. December 10 and I had not responded until 10'ish as I'd fixed dinner, watched TV with the folks and did dishes. I called back to relay the change in the time. He called me back later to let me know he changed the time in his notes and that they are trying to establish a timeline. He told me to hold tight, that they're almost done and it won't be long now.

So I have waited. I emailed the detective that day to inform him of their call. The guy from the ME's office also said that their investigator would be calling the detective to speak to him about what was told to him by Ryan and Erika. He later confirmed that they did speak. I carried my phone everywhere with me that day. No call.

Wednesday I went with Mom and Dad to the Choctaw Seniors' Luncheon and carried my phone with me there. I knew if I was in Bennington I wouldn't get a signal so was glad to be in Durant for part of the day. No call.

Today I was on my way to work following behind Tim when he signaled to me with his cell phone. I dig all through my purse and don't ya know it, I forgot my phone! Ugh! So I called Dad to see if he would keep my phone by him all day in case they called but then realized that the call would not actually be able to be completed due to us being in the sticks!!! Frustrating! So I had to walk Dad through how to get to the contacts in my phone so he could give me the number to the ME's office so I could call and leave them my work number in case today was the day. No call.

I keep having to remind myself that whether I get myself in a tizzy over the results or the call, God already knows the answer and anything I do or don't do will not change the results nor make them call any sooner. So I've been praying and repeatedly handing it over to God only to pick it back up later and start worrying over it. Sigh. God has this. He already knows. At least we will be getting answers sooner than it was predicted, anywhere between March and June. That in itself is a gift from God. Thank you so much, God, for walking beside me this whole time, for being my hope and my identity always.